Breakout

I love my work. I know for sure that I needed my work so much that if I don't have work surely I would starve to death. I always value my work before. My attitude towards my work changes when I got a big issue that involves me. It was truly a disaster since everything changes. I feel bad of what I have become when I realize that I am becoming a worst employee in my workplace. I have been shattered and destroy. I feel like I needed a break, a diversion and an escape. I never feel so incompetent in my life. It was all negative and bad vibes everyday. Now, I wanted to stop the stigma which I infested in me. I need to transcend from my situation. I believe that I needed to change for me to move on and be well again. I thought have surrender it already but still there is pain and there is bitterness inside my heart. I am moving away from where I am now. Tomorrow I will pull myself much harder than before. I will do whatever it takes to be good and to be worthy of all the blessings I receive and recognition place in me. I will work hard and try my very best not to entertain all the negative things in me. I will make things right and be the good person that God wants me to be. I've been disappointed, rejected and hurt by people which I never expected them to do. The lesson I learn is, to never trust easily, to always be in caution so that i will protect my heart from getting hurt and to always remember that only God can make me happy and nobody else. I've been so open, so enslave by other people and so trusting, Now I know that I should love myself and I should take care of myself. I been in this chain for almost four years now. Tomorrow I am looking forward for a new me, for new goal and new mind. I always say that I am sick in the head. Now I declare that I am all well and ready to face a new battle in my life. I am almost done to reach my goal. I claim that God will give this favor and that God will give this chance. I wanted to have the best research paper in my class. I wanted to pass the comprehensive exam and finish my goal. I know that this is not easy but I will try my very best to make everything I do as my blood, as the water i thirst,  as the air that I breath and life I need to cherish and enjoy the most.  As what I always say no matter what happens ,life has to go on. 

Notes of the day

     Exhausted is the word of the day. I'm not really that tired maybe too much thinking keeps my mind work the whole day that makes me think I'm tired. lately I've been through a lot of things and I just keep on reminding myself that everything happens for a reason. I wanted to move forward but something holds me back and I feel like someone is controlling me. I hope that whatever I am going through right now I just wanted to put an end to it. My minds keeps wondering why? why things didn't happen the way I plan. But anyways I know someday, somehow I will know the real reason behind everything. I just go with the flow and just make things the way it should be. I do my tasks and I do it from the heart although lately work challenges me to do well and to prove to people that I am worthy. I know I am special and I know I could do all things with God who strengthens me.  I know i won't survive without God I know He always make a way for me to feel better. He magically transform me and  make me happy whenever I need Him. Thank you Lord. I love u

Picking up the pieces

       I've been very tired yet I'm okay of my situation right now. I'm still adjusting to the kind of life I'm in. I hope that I could get over this adjustment period because I think its almost three months and I'm still struggling and coping with the situation I'm in. There must be a greater reason why God place me here yet I still have to find out His great purpose for me. I know that each step of the way He is in my side. I might be lost and confused today but I know this is not forever. As of now I'm picking up the pieces trying to find each piece and putting them all together. I know that soon I'll be able to see things in the greater view and I would be able to understand the things I'm confused with. As for now I'm still patiently waiting for the right time God will grant me the wisdom for me to fully understand everything. I'm busy of school work and I'm trying to work out my online business-SWA. I hope I could find someone to join my group. I know that someday I will be financially independent. I will share my blessings to those who need it and I'll create opportunities for me to help other people start their new life and shift to a different kind of setting. I'm sharing my business to you click here CARM'S ONLINE BUSINESS OPPORTUNITY. I hope you would take the time to watch this and if you are interested just PM. This is one of the diversion I need for me to be productive and forget whatever issues I need to address. I know that everything happens for a reason whatever it is, I know I'll end up achieving my goals. Have a nice day. =)

Other side of Me

         I'm Carms a sped and a regular class teacher as well. I got simple dreams and i love blogging and I love to share my thoughts to others. For nine years I've been a classroom teacher and I have put all my time and life to teach kids with different personalities and background in life. I've been a grade four teacher for nine years and just this year I've step out of my comfort zone and step in to a new a different kind of teaching and that is teaching kids with special needs. At first I was kinda nervous and worried because the last time I handle kids with special needs was last 2004 when I have my internship and exposure to special education class. Due to some reasons I wanted to have a diversion of the usual things that I'm doing for over the past years of my life. Just last year I join a networking company here in the Philippines Nutratech Global Inc. our products are really effective and affordable as well. My need and a struggle to have financial independence doesn't stop there I also join an online business opportunity to where I could earn extra income for me to help my parents, help others by sharing the opportunity and for me to reach my dreams. TAMBAY ACADEMY this is a great opportunity for you to earn instant 100% commission and multiple streams of income. My deepest why I invest and do business is that I want to change the lives of other people and eliminate poverty in my own little ways. In sharing the business to other people, building relationships and convincing other people that change is worth doing for their own good all it takes is a will and determination to do it. If you are interested PM at CARMS. 

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Help! Fire!

Last June 10 our house almost got caught by a fire. I was so scared and nervous that time. It was actually our dirty kitchen that was burned by the fire. I panic when I saw the fire is slowly consuming our dirty kitchen. We help each other to stop the fire. We are so lucky that we have neighbors who help us in putting the fire down. The firemen went to our house when the fire is already gone. Until now I still can't help but think about that experience. I got so scared thinking of what happen. The lesson that we learn from that experience was that we must always put the fire woods with water after we cook what happen was my mother left the dirty kitchen with burned woods that are still burning but unfortunately the wind blow so strong that the papers that were place there was caught by the fire and there was an oil that spill on it so the fire spread all over the dirty kitchen. Tatay also told us that we should only open one faucet in collecting the water then we must not panic. The day after what happen nanay and tatay bought a new fire extinguisher. The only thing that makes me feel good was we were all helping each other in the house even for my siblings who are not in good terms funny because they are living in the same house yet for five years they never talk to each other and when that thing happens they never hesitate to turn their back instead they work together to put the fire down. I wish they will be friends soon not only in this kind of bad situation but in a scenario were all of us are happy and safe. Have a nice day my friend.

Evaluation

I got sick on evaluation. The preparation is so hard and stressing. I didn't prepare in our evaluation. I didn't even make some changes in the classroom what they see is what they will get. I'm tired of waiting for them and they will just show up without a notice. I wish they won't be coming anymore hehehe but if they will come I will welcome them. It is part of my work anyway. I would love to see them soon this week.

Christmas Wish

I have a bunch of Christmas wish, but the only thing I wish for is that my parents to have a good, long and healthy life. I'm not going to wish something for myself but for them. I wanted them to enjoy life and give them all the best that I could. Its just that there are things that is out of my hands and I'm not in control with. I hope I could in a way make them happy in my own special way.

NSTP Recollection

The Xavier University NSTP contact persons held their recollection and Christmas party today. I was really enrich today. I have learned a lot of things from the recollection. I am proud to say that I encounter God's presence today. I discover that I would have much problem if only I listen to God's will and always believe in what He feels for me. The secret is that we just got to believe no matter how hard our plight is. Just always bear in mind to never stop believing, never lose hope and never give up. I was touched with all the messages that God gave me. I feel so lucky to be there today. Last year I failed to attend the alternative Christmas because I was completing my course in microsoft computer literacy course.

NSTP

Today is the christmas party of the NSTP tutees. I was five minutes late. It was the first time that I came in late in school for the Reading tutorial. The children were very happy. Their tutors gave them something, they have their card making activity, games, storytelling on the life of Jesus and they have feeding. I was kinda worried at first because the barangay failed to come who provides all the cooking materials for the feeding. I decided to get the materials in our house instead of waiting for nothing. I thought it was impossible to have a feeding activity luckily parents like Maam Nieves help provides materials and in cooking.

Christmas Card

Christmas time is fast approaching. Today I let my pupils make their own personalized Christmas card for their parents. They all have good choice in color combination and some still needs practice in writing their thoughts in the card but the card which I really notice was that of Rachel. Before we did the activity she told me that her mom has already gone to heaven so I told her just make one for her dad. When it's already time to pass their work I read her message to her dad. It was really beautiful. Rachel's messages moved me. I was really touched how she thank and acknowledge her father's love for them. I hope that she will fulfill her promise to her dad and grow up to be a mature and responsible child to her dad. Her mom must be so proud of her.

Points to ponder

Many people are hungry of power and position. Naturally they wanted to be on top and do whatever it takes to be there. It is ok to dream, it is alright to reach for a goal and there is no wrong in trying to make it to the top. What is wrong is that when we do things beyond our limitations just to get what we want without thinking what other people might feel and think. What is wrong is that we step on other people's right and deprive them of their opportunities. We are all equal here in this planet. We are all created to image and likeness of God but people are destroyed because of such mentality of wanting to get all they wanted. Let us not be blinded of such wants. We must think what is good for each and everyone of us here setting aside our own and personal interest. We must work hand in hand to solve all our problems. Let us stop blaming others of what happen. Let us hold on to our dreams and achieve them together. We must then do something before it is too late. I know we can make it if humility reign in our hearts, cooperation and sacrifices are made surely we are going to succeed.

Debt

I'm always a victim of borrowers who failed to pay their debt. I don't know maybe I'm just too good to get angry or confront them of the money they owed me. Ever since college my classmates wanted to borrow money from me. I'm ok with it as long as they are going to pay me. The sad thing was some of them even now that I'm already in the service there are still some teachers who failed to pay their debts. I feel that this is really unfair because even if I'm still single I still have a life on my own to live and bills to pay. Unlucky me I don't have a husband to help shoulder my budget and all that. Just recently somebody wants me to apply for a loan worth 80 thousand imagine I'm a fool to let myself borrow money from the bank with the money that I'm not going to use. An angel told me not to let this happen and that my decision to say yes to this loan thing is not good. I just got to thank her because I was able to refuse on saying yes to this loan thing. Thank God I was saved.

Save the last dance

I decided to finally join the dance even if I don't really like the idea of wearing a gown while dancing. As what I have said this is just for once in a lifetime event. We have our practice today and I'm really tired of doing such they wanted that our performance will be perfect because as what they say we are performing for the opening production number in the program. I can't help it but to complain on the gown issue thing but I got to follow their decision or I else I'll just make myself absent for that day. There is no turning back I got to attend the dance if I quit maam Lydia will have no more partner in the dance.I got to stick to the plan. Have a nice day my friend.

Dancing wearing a gown

This coming December 3 all teachers in our division is going to celebrate Teacher's Day. All the different districts are going to present a dance presentation. Unlucky me I am one of the dancers no exception. I love to dance, I know how to dance and dancing is one of my favorite things to do in college. I remember before I used to dance with my friends we even name our group as the Gestures Beat. We dance when there are general assemblies, programs and even on parties. When I graduated in college we lost contact with each other except for my cousin honey who is the leader in the group. The school is so busy preparing for our presentation. We are going to dance the Waltz. I love Waltz its just that they are going to let us wear gowns while dancing imagine me dancing wearing a gown. I'm still hesitant to wear a gown in fact the only time I wear a gown is when I became one of Ate Joy's bridesmaids. I just got to take it. It is once in a life time event. Maybe I will be taking off my eyeglasses then while dancing for me not to see people who will be watching me on stage. I'm just too shy because of my huge, enormous, big and gigantic size hehehe

Play

Kids are playful today. I just couldn't understand why they love to play and they don't even get tired of doing it. They keep on running, jumping and skipping. I could have done those things too when I was young like their age but I wasn't able to do it because I'm sickly before even until now. There are a lot of things that I'm not allowed to do. Too much play and too much fatigue can trigger my asthma. Honestly I felt that I have missed a lot of thing in my childhood years. I wasn't able to climb on the tree, ride a bicycle, and the one which I still wanted to try until now is too play on the rain. I guess I wouldn't taste the cake just to know if it is sweet when I already know that it is for my own good. Looking back then I didn't really have such boring childhood because I play dolls and plastic plates which don't require much physical strength but I still couldn't help wonder what it feels like to climb the tree, ride a bicycle and play in the rain. I hope someday I'll have those chances I would really take it. I see to it that my kids in school got to play what they wanted in the right time but sometimes they over do it that is why I let them play after class time.

My Favorite Pupil

He is not really my favorite but he always caught my attention. I don't understand why he behave that way. He teases his classmates, he go in and out of the classroom, he is happy when someone gets hurt, he even inflict pain to his classmates and he don't even value his education. It hurts me so badly because he is a part of my class and it seems like all options have been taken for me to win him. It is not all the time that he makes bad things it only depends on his mood. I pitied him when I found out that he is living with is grandmother and he did opened up to me that his mom and dad live separately and have a family of their own. I could feel his pain. For how many times I tried to understand him and for all the love I've shown him it is just not enough for me to heal his pain until he could accept his life and start living without begging for his parents to give him the time to be love and to love them in return. Everyday he wanted to be seen and to be noticed at. I could not help it but to discipline him and tell him what is right from wrong. His wounds are too deep to be healed. I know in time someday he will realized and accept everything. I'm hoping that he will truly be fine soon. I'm praying that he would choose the right path for his life.

Where am I now?

I know that I've been so preoccupied with a lot of work lately sometimes I can't find the meaning of it anymore. It is kinda bit frustrating to know but that is the whole truth but I'm trying to pick up all the pieces back for me and do my best in school that the kids will learn something from me that I could still do my obligations in school to the best that I can. Naturally, I should have no problem number #1 I'm single and i don't have any cardiac problems any matters from the heart, #2 I'm free I could do whatever I want, and 3# people really think that I almost have everything. I realize that I just wanted things to be perfect that is why I got frustrated when my expectations are not met. I just got to bear in mind that I'm not perfect and that I must embrace and accept my imperfections in that way then it will teach me to become a better and humble person.

Robots Exhibit Pictutres by Ronald Serapio

These are just one of the robot collection by Ronald Serapio at his Robots Exhibit. He created his robots using scrap materials which he converted it into different style and here is it ta dah..... Sure going to be fascinated about especially if you got to see it for real.

the red robot
check what this plane made of

the robot with a mouse body and plug hands

This is the huge robot displayed on the dance floor.